Growing pains

My parents are divorced. Yet instead of acting like adults they ignore each other like 5 year-olds mad at each other. This creates a confusing conflict for me because they both have different views about what I should do. I really want to drive a car. I got my permit in ninth grade but I cannot get my license because my mother wants to wait. Her reasoning is that since Liz and Ellie both got their driving privileges at 17. I have been valiantly trying to fight this yet it gets me no where. She decided that I could get my license earlier if I got an A for the semester in Math. She knew that math was my weakest subject and I got very few A's on my tests and quizzes. Despite my efforts Mr. Margrum's class proved too difficult and I got a B in his class. So the likelihood of my getting my license has dropped. I am to inherit the 2003 Ford Focus station wagon which I detest. Two windows don't work and a third is on its way out. The locks are faulty and the engine is on its last leg.

Then I visit my Dad and the car situation is a different story. He wanted me to get my license as soon as possible. He said that every child is different so the fact that LIZ and Ellie got their licenses at 17 means nothing. He said it was even more absurd because there is such an age gap between me and Ellie. He also saw the Ford Focus as useless car. Together we went on ebay motors and looked at almost every single car that existed. So my Dad installed this sense of false hope in me because I really had no say in the design at all. So when I reconfrount my mom about this issue it erupts in to this gargantuan brawl discussing every trouble that has plagued our family.

My growing pain is living in a split world of false hope and reality. My father is the false hope because I would really enjoy living with him yet I am brought back to reality when I go back to my mother's. I can understand both parents yet they are trying to raise two children in one person. It will be really awful my junior and senior year as ideas on what I should do for college arise. I am already trying to counter act this in every possible way.